So many of you still have Shelb in your profile photos

Most of you say “she was my friend “ not just “ she was in my year” or “I went to school with her “

Nice to know that the friendships were very mutual and full of love xx thank you to each and everyone of you xx

Merry Xmas xx

Today we remember our beautiful girl.

One of those days where you get up and get on with it even though a day in bed feeling sorry for yourself and all that has happened is what you feel you really need !
I know that’s not going to help or change anything and it’s certainly not something I would of ever let the kids get away.
Mays waiting for a walk and Pippa ; who has become my “office assistant” , is waiting to be let in . Best get on with it.

Happy Monday all xx

Loving daylight savings . “Savings “ being the word ! . I had a wonderful weekend with family and friends and was spoiled rotten . But with every high I get a low … waves ! When it all stops which is inevitable I have to much time to think . I’ve had a couple of tough days where I’m on auto pilot – just going through the motions – it passes but the extra vitamin D sure helps . Bring on summer xx

I forgot to put your lights on last night but your were still remembered with the Rosegold party hats xx

Samantha, Ashton and the girls put alot of effort into my bday cake and Caleb complimented it with a M&Ms Icecream cake .

Needless to say I have some walking to do this week as there were lots of yummy dishes consumed this weekend .

Two Days until my birthday. You would of been in the kitchen ( you would of loved the new one) making me whatever cake I had tagged you in and organising the girls; Rose and Tay ,to sleepover and get Nanna Tanna Breakfast in bed .

The girls will stay and Uncle Caleb will assist them getting me breakfast ( wish me luck with that lol) .

The girls getting me breakfast and making cards reminds me of when you were young.

These special days I don’t miss you more than any other day but your absence is more obvious as you loved making these days special for the recipient .

I’m sure there will be a rainbow or a certain bird laughing a little louder Saturday morning as you and Isaack always find a way to say “hey” when we need it xx

I’ve mentioned “waves” before . They come along without any notice and you have to just let the current that draws it back out to sea take you . You have to float around until the sea calms and then wade back in when it’s over . You have to attempt to adjust your thinking as best you can and put one foot in front of the other and get on with living your best life.

I’ve had an ache in my stomach most of the weekend . Nothing particularly unusual about this weekend but just one of those weekends where you have to paint a smile on your face and be “thankful “ for everything you still have . Because I do have a lot to be thankful for xx

The easy thing to do would be give up . That isn’t an option . You have so many people that you love and that love you who would be dealing with yet more grief if you stopped fighting yours .

Unless you have owned a pair of these really uncomfortable shoes and had to walk in them you can’t fully understand how each day feels . I know I most certainly didn’t and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

I’m ok ( well as ok as I will ever be ) . I find writing and sharing helps . I’m not after sympathy and I’m not trying to worry anyone . I hope that my ramblings help those in similar situations who unfortunately are having the same experiences xx

Favourite time of the year; once our bodies adjust ! Shelb you loved daylight savings . Heading for the beach after school/work . Spending time with the dogs in the backyard ; you taught May “sit” and “shake”.

Daylight savings is great for those of us who work full time – especially in Tassie – get out there people , get your vitamin D fix . It’s proven to be good for depression and mood in general . Live and enjoy every moment

Tomorrow isn’t promised . Live each day to its fullest xx

Well Shelb (and Isaack) we are all moved in !

Your work boots are at the front door – chucked just as you liked them ( drove laurie insane 🙂 ) . The present from Chloe hung above them xx

Your corner is by the table so you can always be part of the festivities.

Your room ( because we refer to it as Shelbs room ) is all set up . It’s also my home office for the time being . I hope you approve . There are two very excited nieces counting the sleeps until Friday when they stay over .

I hope you both approve . I feel you both would of loved it here ( especially when we went to the shack and you had the run of the place)

I thought leaving “home” would of been harder . I guess I felt I was leaving so much of you behind and wondered how I would get through it . I realised that my memories travel with me in my heart and mind and that the love you had for us travels with us everywhere xx